Monday, September 6, 2021

《同桌讓我無心學習》蘇景閒

我特別喜歡校園耽美。 
看過《某某》《撒野》《偽裝學渣》等大作後,我也隔了好一段時間沒看小說。
最近看過幾篇像《明人不說暗戀》、《不是什麼正經校草》、《過門》、《我叫我同桌打你》都挺好看,但是總覺得還是少了一點什麼。
好像稍微撓到心的時候又愕然停止了。

這幾天終於讀完一篇我好喜歡的《同桌讓我無心學習》,作者是蘇景閒。
人物和背景設定和《撒野》有些相似之處,比如兩個主角都有家庭的創傷。
《撒野》的顧飛和《同桌》的池野一樣年紀輕輕要挑起一個家的重擔,也都有個年紀小的妹妹要照顧。
《撒野》的蔣丞來自破碎的原生家庭,後來被領養家庭退養;《同桌》的聞簫則是父母妹妹在海難中離世。
不過我沒有要比較的意思,因為兩篇我都超愛,我就是喜歡這樣的設定啊~~

其實校園耽美看多了就會知道有很多場景都是似曾相似的,這就要看作者講故事的功力到哪裡了。
《同桌》裡沒有很多讓我印象深刻的優美詞句,但是我很喜歡作者寫兩個人之間的一些小細節。
還有分手後到再次在一起這段時間,也有比較多的篇幅,不煽情但是就是會痛。
聞簫連分手都捨不得讓池野說,他自己來當壞人。
他心疼池野的苦,但又無能為力。
聞簫的性格很可愛,冷冷的但對池野不傲嬌,而且會多次主動親池野。(喝醉後超可愛的~)

兩個人知道彼此是在相愛卻又無奈的情況下分手的。
分手後聞簫在離開前向池野道別的那一場景,既揪心又溫暖。
明明是相愛的,但是彼此很清楚此刻的分手是為了更好的未來,而且是雙方都有彼此的未來。
他們心中都有很強的信念以及對對方的信任。
池野說,因為他知道有人在前方等著他,所以他必須向前走。
聞簫說,因為他有喜歡的人,所以他答應對方不看別人給的情書、不收別人送的禮物。
只要是池哥說的,他都答應。

他們也沒有在分道揚鑣後完全斷絕關係。
沈野發的朋友圈只有聞簫看得見,雖然彼此沒有主動聯繫對方,可是他在用自己的方式讓聞簫知道自己的近況。

最重要是結局是HE。
我看小說的初衷就是在繁忙的一天結束後,稍微享受可以逃避現實的時刻。
看得開心就好。
這篇《同桌讓我無心學習》我推薦哦!
(這書名...差點就讓我忽略過去了 XD)

Thursday, August 26, 2021

Favourite scenes from Chapter 38 (Final Chapter)

Finally, Caste Heaven came to its end after 7,5 years.
Thank you Ogawa sensei for not giving up and completed the comic.

I am quite satisfied with the ending.
I have different interpretation of 'happy ending'. 
For me, happy ending doesn't need to be 'staying together'.
There are so many different kind of relationships and living patterns.
(In the reality as well, I have seen too many cases around me. :-)

After 10 years...
Atsumu and Kuze live happily together,
Azusa and Karino live seperately but still seeing and teasing each other,
Sensaki and Tatsumi too, they still have the attachment.
But they have one thing in general -- LOVE.

These are my fav scenes of Azusa X Karino.

On the graduation day, Azusa teased Karino and Karino hid himself.
Azusa tried to look for him with teary eyes.

 

Azusa: I couldn't hold it. I feel like want to cry when he treats me so gently.

   

After 10 years, Karino works for the Ministry of Finance and is going to run for the upcoming election.
He is very popular especially among the women.

Azusa is a passionate reporter who always tries to dig some insiders news (forget about ethics, hahaha!)
They live their own life, but intersect at some points.
Still seeing each other, still love to tease each other.
Their game carries on, and Azusa will never loosen the knot which tied them together. :-)








Summary Caste Heaven Chapter 38 (EN) (FINAL!!)

The chapter started with Atsumu and Kuze looking for Azusa and Karino.

The graduation ceremony for the third year students is about to begin, but they cannot be found.
While Azusa was resting with eyes closed, a butterfly made a stop on his head.
Karino chased the butterfly away. Azusa was angry because Karino woke him up.
*********
The third year students started taking graduation photos.
Tatsumi's mother also came to watch him giving graduation speech as a representative of the graduates.
She was so moved by the fact that this excellent child who always did his best, but at the same time trying to keep a low profile.
(But Tatsumi said that he actually planned it)
During the photo shooting session, Tatsumi asked Amamiya to help him with the speech.
Amamiya asked why and Tatsumi said he was waiting for the devil to mess up his happiness.
*********
Atsumu, who was still looking for Azusa and Karino heard their voices.
They were still fighting with each other.
Atsumu found out that it was them and said that “you two are really together.”
Kuze also said in a weird way that “you two are really close.”
They both denied that they are not together.
Karino also teased Kuze that “until when are you going to be Atsumu's henchman?”
(And Karino called him “Kuze-chan”. Hahahaha, the two are so funny)
****************
Inukai is taking pictures for everyone with his camera.
As he wa shouting to everyone to look at the camera and smiled, Kuze turned his head and gave Karino a kiss!
(Karino made a disgusted face and Kuze laughed)
Kuze and Atsumu were posting for photo.
Azusa and Karino squeezed Kuze out together and finally became a three-person photo shoot.
Seeing everyone so happy, Taisho wanted to join in and wrapped around Azusa.
Karino saw Taisho and Azusa posting together, he turned around and left.
Azusa asked Karino why he left without telling and Azusa followed him.
********
The game in class 2-1 continued in shuffle mode because the king card wasn’t found.
Some people wanted the game to start officially, but it was rejected by the Game Committee with the decadent excuse that the king card had not yet been found.
Everyone lived in this status-less state.
**********
Karino and Azusa ran into Kagura before the graduation ceremony started.
They asked him why he wasn't there for the ceremony and the time was almost up.
Kagura said he was a bit late because he tidied up Eno’s stuffs.
Eno's injury was treated as an accident.
Taisho wanted to apologize to Eno for hurting him.
Eno told him not to apologize because he had to apologize for something too.
At that moment, Akio and Nakatomi behind him were shouting at Kagura to hurry up.
Before Kagura left, he wished that Karino and Azusa treat each other nicely.
(Azusa denied that they have good relationship hahaha)
At the same time, Tatsumi was going to attend the graduaton.
As if he heard Azusa's voice, he searched around and regretted not being able to tease Azusa at last.
Suddenly, somebody dragged him away from behind and Tastumi disappeared.
********
On the other side, the paper bags and armbands of the game committee members were burning on the ground.
It turned out that the game committees were actually the third-year students Akio and Nakatomi and Kagura.
Inukai and Anji didn‘t want that those regretful bad things are passed on to the next generation.
They hope that this game could be a chance for reconciliation.
********
At the graduation ceremony, Atsumu, as a current student, gave a speech to his seniors.
Azusa and Karino escaped and started fighting with each other again.
Azusa told Karino not to follow him.
Karino said he didn’t, he just wanted to go this way.
Azusa teased him, "What a waste of such nice cherry blossom! Alright, it is also ok if you want to follow me…”
When Azusa turned around, Karino was gone.
Azusa started to get nervous and shouted for Karino: where are you, bastard?
He even called Karino's name – Kouhei!
Karino was hiding behind a tree and asked Azusa “what’s up”.
Azusa saw Karino and tears falling down.
Karino asked Azusa why he was crying.
Azusa said he didn't.
Karino wanted to look at his face. He blocked Azusa’s way and finally saw the tears.
Then Karino kissed Azusa.
They didn't know what they were going to do.
Karino suggested why not simply go for a random train journey without having a destination.
Kyoko saw them sneaking off again together.
*******
Speech from Atsumu:
“On this beautiful day when the sun is shining and the snow is melting, I would like to congratulate everyone on their graduation.
What is it like to be a student?
Was it happy or painful?
For me, there were many painful experiences.
However, I have don’t hate anyone, because we are simply creatures who are swayed by the circumstances given and the position we are in,
where anyone can be a victim or a perpetrator.
In the process of environmental changes and mutual contact between people with different positions, we understand ourselves, forgive others, and find irreplaceable people.
It is not the person who should change, but the environment.
We should work together towards the goal of creating an environment where everyone can respect each other.
The seniors are next to embark on a new journey.
The difficulties encountered may be even more irrational, insurmountable and unchangeable than they do now.
I hope you will remember what you learned at this school, the one that tore us apart and bridged us back together...”
*********
10 years later.
Atsumu returned to his alma mater as a teacher.
The female students loved him and thought he was cute and liked to poke him in the face.
Atsumu felt that the students didn’t take him seriously.
His former teacher said that he was loved by everyone.
The teacher didn't expect Atsumu to come back to teach.
Atsumu said he wanted to contribute to the children of the future
Back at the home where Kuze and Atsumu live together.
It's been 5 years since the two lived together after graduating from college.
Kuze went from a big company to a venture capital firm.
Atsumu told him that the students at school are nice kids.
He also received hand-made snacks from students.
And Kuze is still the same possessive person.
He wants to have Atsumu's body and mind all to himself.
***************
On the TV, it is announced that the member of parliament Karino (Kouhei’s father) is unable to participate in the election due to health reasons.
In a car, Tatsumi asked someone for help because this was the last task of Mr Karino as a politician.
That person asked what the payment would be.
Tatsumi said a number but didn't get a reply.
That person said it's not a matter of quantity.
That person asked Tatsumi if he had ever “played himself”, and hhe replied occasionally.
That person also said that if it's occasional, ‘the colour shouldn’t be that strong”, he warned Tatsumi not to lie.
Tatsumi asked if he hates bad kids.
The person answered him: No, I like him the most.
(So, you guys know who is that person.)
*******
A bike darted past the car.
It's the reporter Azusa who just got a good story.
He came back to report to his boss and was supposed to start writing the story.
But he went out again and said he had another target.
In the middle of an interview.
The hostess introduced Karino (Kouhei), who is likely to run for office.
He is the son of a congressman, 27 years old, graduated from the University of K, a pure elite, and very popular with his good looks, and asked if he would run in this election.
Karino said that he would announce it on the official occasion, and hoped that the reporters would not ask questions here, which would cause trouble to others.
The female fans were all swooning and thought he was such a gentleman
An older man next to Azusa and Azusa expressed their displeasure together.
Hearing the sound, Karino and Azusa exchanged glances
The same old tit-for-tat.
************
Azusa was at the front door of a high-class apartment ( He only said "it's me".)
After going up to the door, Karino and Azusa started being intimate.
Karino fished out a hidden recorder from Azusa’s cloth.
Karino stripped Azusa naked and pushed him down.
Azusa teased him, "Can't you wait?”
Karino said he wouldn't let him wear any cloth here.
Azusa smiled and said: “I'll keep trying to catch your weakness.”
The game continues for both of them.
Both living in their own worlds, but always intertwined
**************
In a classroom, Atsumu was teaching.
Two girls were whispering:
"Do you know a game that's popular among friends these days?"
"Eh, what's that?"
"Listen it's a game where you can make yourself someone else."
"Eh ~ it feels so interesting, what game is it?"
"I heard it's called caste game"

Tuesday, August 24, 2021

金曲32 年度金曲

恭喜 《刻在我心底的名字》繼金馬獎後,在第32屆金曲獎榮獲年度金曲!

馬上再重溫這首歌,依然感動。

九個月前磕的驊森CP感已經雲消霧散,電影帶來的感動也快忘得七七八八,

但是這首歌帶來的溫暖依舊。

撇去電影的影響,如今再聽別有一番滋味。


瞿導說當初找了幾個歌手來唱,卻沒有一個成,估計是因為電影題材和演出費的關係。

輾轉又回到和他合作過很多次的廣仲手裡。

我想當初拒絕這首歌的歌手多少有些遺憾吧。

但每個歌手和其公司都有自己的考量,也不能怪任何人。

廣仲和歌曲很有緣分。

他和瞿導的合作關係、添翼給他很多的自由去做他想做的、他沒有偶像包袱、他的歌聲很溫柔很適合這首歌......


有時候一首好的詞曲,也需要運氣和緣分。

不是說由誰唱都會讓歌曲大紅大紫。

我很高興最後是廣仲唱了這首歌。

就如他得獎感言,我們應該更加地溫柔對待這個世界。

網絡上的語言暴力十分可怕,也許因為大家都躲在人群後,所以有些人可以放肆地去發洩自己的情緒、不顧及他人感受肆意傷害別人。

我也曾經因為這樣而關閉了留言功能。

但是切斷了與外界的交流,讓我有些無所適從。

所以我覺得今天再開啟留言功能。

歡迎大家來留言交流,同時也希望我們能夠更加溫柔地對待每一個人。




Wednesday, July 21, 2021

Favourite scenes from Caste Heaven Chapter 37

Here are my favourite scenes!!

The sex on the rooftop scenes are really good, but I couldn't upload them here. 

If this has awaken your curiosity, I can tell you it is definitely worth getting a copy of Chapter 37! :-)

Like the previous chapter, there is no violence and brutal scenes, only friendship, love, gratitude and forgiveness.



Azusa hugged Atsumu and apologized for what he have done all along.






I especially like the plot above.
Azusa forgave Eno and hugged him.
He pushed Eno away saying:' It's time for you to be saved.'

Then Kagura stretching his hands out and held Eno from behind.
Kagura apologized to Eno and he wanted to touch Eno again.
Eno cried and said it was too late, but Kagura said it won't be too late.
Both of them together, they can flap their wings again and again.
Finally, Eno cried like a child in Eno's hands.
It is like back to their childhood time.





Azusa burnt the King Card in front of Karino and said: 
'I though if I could destroy your most important thing, I'll win the game,'
Karino smiled and replied:
'Mine? How reckless. My most important thing couldn't be broken easily.'
Then they kissed with passion and love.


Holding hands with finger interlaced.
The prove of they are in love with each other.


Wednesday, July 7, 2021

Summary of Caste Heaven Chapter 37

Million thanks to Penpen!

The Caste Game of Class 2-1 will resume.
The game commissioner introduced the rules as usual like in the first chapter.
The trump cards are scattered throughout the campus and each individual’s position will be determined by the card they found.
The King card is the top of the caste and Joker card is the lowest, which is also the Target.
Those who refuse to participate are immediately turned into Targets.
So let’s start the new round of the rank battle.
Everyone rushed out and started looking for cards.
Kuze asked Atsumu what they should do next.
Atsumu said the caste system was convenient when somebody wanted to hide their weaknesses.
But he was not going to pick any card because he refuses to rely on the game from now on.
Kuze said he knew that Atsumu will say like that and he will stand by him.
At this time, Azusa came over and hugged Atsumu.
(Kuze showed his stinky face)
Azusa apologized that he made lots of mistake all along and he was thankful to Atsumu.
Azusa promised he was going to put an end to the game.
The game commissioners who were standing behind were speechless.
Kuze was jealous and he hugged Atsumu tight when Atsusa went off.
One of the commissioners said he had to get ready.
Another commissioner also warned him to be aware of outsiders.
(Penpen: I think some outsiders had assimilated in the game among the commissioners)
Eno and his gang approached the commissioner.
Eno asked the commissioner to tell him where the King Card was.
The commissioner said since they were not from Class 2-1, they were not allowed to involve in the game, otherwise it will be unfair.
Eno retorted that there was no real fairness.
The commissioner said even so they were still not allowed to influence the participant’s choice.
The commissioner had Eno in a chokehold and decided to detain Eno before the game ends.
At this time, Azusa came by.
Eno bit the commissioner and escaped.
Azusa felt that Eno will sure mess up the whole thing.
Eno was exhausted after escaping from the commissioner.
He wondered why they were so serious about the game.
Taisho came up from behind and teased Eno.
He felt ‘so sorry’ to the Queen who lost his followers.
Eno turned around and asked who Taisho was.
Taisho said even though Eno didn’t know him, but he was there to clean up rubbish.
And then Taisho stabbed Eno with a knife!!!
Eno was dumbfounded for a moment and fell on the ground moaning in pain.
Eno asked Taisho who he was and why did he do that to him.
Taisho said that the attacker was always very forgetful.
But the scars of the victims will never disappear.
He wanted Eno to go through what his brother went through before.
He wanted to leave Eno scars that will remain forever.
As he was about to stab Eno again, Azusa stopped Taisho from behind.
Taisho didn't understand. He just wanted to take vengeance for his brother.
Azusa said taking vengeance won't help, nobody would be happy.
Taisho said Eno must be punished by someone.
Azusa told him this fits in exactly with Eno’s wishes.
Azusa asked Eno to get up and stop acting.
Eno smiled and said he thought he had delivered a subtle performance.
Eno got up and said he now remembered who Taisho was. He was the brother of that toy boy.
Eno incited Taisho to stab him.
Taisho was a little shocked and asked if he was serious.
Eno said he was a thrash, just like what Taisho said about him.
Eno said Taisho wasn’t able to kill him and asked Taisho to stab him harder, let Taisho dirt himself with his blood.
Azusa looked at Eno and pulled him over.
Eno thought Azusa wanted to attack him, but Azusa pulled him over and hugged him.
Azusa said to Eno: You should be saved too.
Then Azusa pushed Eno away.
Kagura stretched out his hand and hugged Eno from behind.
Eno struggled and asked Kagura to let him go but Kagura refused.
Kagura apologized to Eno because he didn’t reach out to save Eno that time. He was too afraid that he would fall too.
Eno kept asking Kagura to let him go while Kagura kept talking.
Kagura said he wasn’t as strong and righteous as Eno thought. But he still wanted to touch Eno again.
Kagura asked Eno to give him the courage and hold his hand again.
Eno said it was too late. He had messed up everything.
Kagura said if they were together, they could still fly high no matter how many times.
Finally, Eno cried out loudly and revealed his true feeling.
Taisho said this was unacceptable.
Nobody had saved anything and it was not yet over.
Azusa told Taisho that he had forgiven Eno.
If Taisho couldn’t accept this, he could vent his anger on him.
Taisho said Azusa was so cunning
He could never do this to someone who was so kind to his brother.
At this moment, Atsumu came and told them that the ambulance was on its way.
Azusa said he was counting on him because he was going to leave.
Taisho hoped that Azusa could stay there with him.
Azusa stroked Taisho’s head and asked him to stay together with his brother.
Taisho’s brother came and Taisho apologized because he failed to take vengeance for him.
Taisho’s brother said he didn’t expect that either.
Taisho’s brother said somebody has already rescued him, although that person didn’t keep him in his heart.
(Penpen: I have the feeling that Taisho had special feeling towards Azusa and Haruto his brother were interested in Karino…)
The girls complained that they couldn't find their cards.
Kanako was tired and she wanted to eat muffin.
Kyoko said let's go eat muffins together.
(They didn't care about the game at all.)
Seeing Azusa running over, Kyoko greeted him and told him that the King Card wasn’t there.
At that moment, the cards scattered from the rooftop.
It was Inukai and Anji after a long time!
Anji asked Inukai if it was good to do so.
Inukai said he wanted to see what Azusa would do.
Yukari was calling out to Yatori to help her with the card.
(Maybe she saw the King Card)
But Azusa got the King Card finally.
Azusa came to the rooftop and burnt the King Card.
Kneeling down in front of Karino, Azusa said:’ I thought I could win the game by destroying the most important thing to you. Then you will kneel down in front of me too.’
Karino:’Mine? How reckless. My most important thing won’t be able to be broken easily.’
Then both of them have 9 pages sex scene on the rooftop!
No one ever told us
The anxiety and struggle that we went through and finally we found them,
the feeling of being passionate…
seems everyone calls it "love".

--- Next chapter will be the last chapter. T.T ---

Wednesday, June 23, 2021

Best scenes of Caste Heaven CH 36!

Just got my Kindle digital version of Caste Heaven today.

This is definitely my favourite chapter. 

Still 3 chapters left, I hope I can have more Azusa and Karino! 

These are the best scenes (for me) from chapter 36.

For those who want to (and afford to) support Ogawa sensei, you may go to amazon.co.jp to purchase a copy.

Caste Heaven is released monthly on Be X Boy Magazine. 

Hope you enjoy the beautiful scenes as much as I do!

I love the plot where Karino purposely walked down the stairs and stood at a lower position than Azusa.
For me, I would interpret it as he is defeated by Azusa because he loves him.
He could give up everything for Azusa, and in order to protect Azusa.



Karino: "I want to touch you with my true self."

Azusa wanted Karino to join the game and fight with him one more time so badly.
Azusa was desperate when Karino told him that he quitted the game and Azusa could be the King as he like.
Azusa was desperate because he thought the Caste Game was the only way for him to be connected with Karino.
But Karino quitted the game because he wanted to fix his wrongdoing. 
He wanted to touch Azusa with his true self, not with the power and authority granted by the game.



Azusa decided never to drop his tears in front of other people since the day he knew that he had nobody to rely on.
But he cried helplessly in front of Karino. He was afraid of being seperated from Karino.
Azusa said:' I don't know any other way to stay connected with you."



The gentle kiss and smile from Karino, and crying Azusa...