Monday, November 1, 2021

《如果你愛我》胡夏

最近注意到胡夏,是因為他和林子祥合唱了《那些年》。

《那些年》爆紅的2011年,有幾個沒聽過胡夏唱的這首歌?

當時覺得歌曲很美,歌手的歌聲也很好,但是沒有太大的辨識度。

所以2011年當時,我只知道胡夏這個名字,連長什麼樣子都沒去搜過。


在YT看了《我們的歌》裡他和林子祥合唱了《數字人生》和《真的漢子》,聽得超過癮的!

非常佩服胡夏的挑戰精神。

《數字人生》很難唱,不只音域廣闊、節奏快、還是他不熟悉的粵語。

我記得當初楊千樺出場和他對唱後,有個嘉賓就因為覺得自己粵語不行而沒敢去挑戰。

但胡夏唱得很好,聽消音版後會發現他的聲音沒有被林子祥壓下去。

即使一些發音不怎麼標準,卻也不影響整體表現。

(雖然很多時候Lam大神都臉不紅氣不喘地接過了高音的部分,也填補了胡夏暫時喘氣的部分,可小孩才30歲啊!不能和70多歲的樂壇大神相比啦。)


然後,我就被粉圈了。XD

我翻遍了他的演出,最喜歡的是他在《追光吧,哥哥》演唱的《如果你愛我》。

很溫柔細膩,他唱每一首歌感覺都那麼真誠。

還有一首是他在《超級星光》裡唱的《家後》。

如今的胡夏唱功已經翻了好幾十倍。

聽過他的快歌和抒情歌,抒情歌不用說肯定好聽,但驚喜的是快歌也很好聽!

他的快歌,沒有嘶吼和過嗨的感覺,反正很合我胃口。


胡夏的嗓子是得天獨厚的。

他的現場非常穩定,高音聽起來很舒服,而且歌聲有安穩人心的效果。

很多人憤憤不平,那麼好的歌手為什麼就在《那些年》後就一直不火,連他自己也說自己不溫不火。

其實他唱過很多OST,比如《知否知否》就是很紅的一首歌。


火不火,其實有很多因素。

他是個不怎麼營業搞嚼頭的歌手,和他形像也不符合。

胡夏長得很乖,乾乾淨淨的樣子。

雖然不是一眼就覺得帥的類型,但是很順眼。

我覺得他的團隊真的應該多花一點心思在胡夏的造型上。

他的可塑性是很高的!

可是目前為止都很不穩定,有時候覺得特別傻,有時候覺得挺帥,是想怎樣。XD


我不看綜藝節目,即使唱歌選秀類節目也是等節目結束後我才去聽。

這是第一次我那麼期待《我們的歌》下一期的節目,很想看胡夏會給大家帶來怎樣的驚喜。

感謝林子祥的提拔,胡夏一次又一次漂亮地完成了他的任務,我相信他會越來越好。

認真的小孩,會有應得的回報。

加油,胡夏!

Tuesday, September 21, 2021

《春日契约》张佩奇

一向不看abo的我,竟然好喜欢张佩奇的《春日契约》!

作者的文笔很合我胃口,我觉得感情部分写得挺细腻的,很让我心动。

这是我继她的《你是什么垃圾》后看的第二部作品,两部都很棒!


不知道耽美圈里有没有统一的abo设定,反正这是我第一次看abo题材的,就跟着作者自己的设定好了。

Alpha和omega是少数的性别,beta则是普通群体,没有信息素也闻不到信息素。

Alpha是三个性别中最优秀的,可以标记很多omega。

而Omega一辈子只能有一个Alpha,是被保护的弱势群体。

Omega在发情期的时候必须靠Alpha给予安抚,或者打抑制素。

Alpha和Omega的结合是本能,也是被信息素支配的。

(Omega也可以做昂贵的腺体摘除手术以断绝这种支配。就像受的母亲,身为被Alpha抛弃的Omega单亲妈妈,她就忍痛去做了这个手术)


陆琛是Alpha中的优质生,高冷全能。

但是他天生腺体有缺陷,他不会对任何信息素有反应,因此也被认为性冷感。

陆琛不肯随意接受任何Alpha或Omega,因为他非常抗拒被本能和信息素支配。


卓逸然是Beta中的Alpha,即是普通的Beta里的优质生,甚至可以媲美一些Alpha。

性格爽朗豁达,对Alpha和Omega没有太多了解。


卓逸然为了赢取限量版球鞋而参加了跨越性别恋爱的《契约恋人》游戏,

而陆琛则是被好友坑进了游戏。

卓逸然和陆琛就这样被系统凑成了一对。

陆琛一开始是拒绝的,但是受到“上头”学姐的压迫,不得不硬着头皮参加游戏。

为了赢得票数,卓逸然很努力经营和陆琛假扮情侣。

而在过程中,陆琛渐渐喜欢上了卓逸然(但还是一副高冷样~)。


卓逸然在发现到自己对陆琛的感情的同时,竟然因为彼此信息素匹配度超高而导致自己分化成了Omega!

但是勇敢的卓逸然并没有因此感到羞愧,反而勇敢去面对自己的新身份和对抗对他不轨的Alpha。

在卓逸然分化的同时,陆琛也经历了很大的改变,变得越来越像占有欲很强的Alpha。

他在一旁守护着心爱的人,在卓逸然脆弱无助的时候给他信心和安全感。

他也强制压抑着自己对着卓逸然的欲望,因为他觉得爱远胜于本能和欲望,他可以为了卓逸然忍耐。


我觉得整篇文没有什么多余的情节,就算是我不太喜欢看的篮球情节,我也一一看完,觉得写得很不错。

全文卓逸然只说了一次“我喜欢你”,陆琛也只说了一次“我爱你”,可是在他们日常的相处,却能感觉出彼此的羁绊和对对方的爱意。

真的是好文!

Tuesday, September 14, 2021

《你是什麼垃圾》張佩奇

張佩奇的《你是什麼垃圾》真的出乎我預料的好看!

兩個主角沒有很悲慘的背景。高冷學霸江行舟的父母是老師;學渣原沅因為母親的關係被人惡意冠上“狐狸精”的惡名,但也只是前面一開始的小插曲而已。其實他母親後來扶正,同父異母的姐姐和他關係也很好。

兩人都是大學生,原沅是表演藝術生,江行舟是另一個系的學長。

因為一些因素讓玩世不恭的原沅對江行舟死纏爛打,要他非當自己的導生不可。

故事題材在校園耽美里算是比較別出心裁的,因為原沅一開始就被罰在垃圾分類站站崗一個月。

然後他和江行舟為了參加微電影大賽拍了關於垃圾回收工作人員的一天。

很喜歡這部文的幾點:

1. 

原沅一開始是抱著玩的心態接近江行舟。但是越接觸越喜歡對方,然後再多次發現自己的不足和與對方的距離。於是他變得越來越慫,也不敢再追求對方。因為是認真的,所以反而不敢隨便接近。

2. 

看是冷酷的江行舟,其實他一而再再二三地給機會原沅追求自己。但是他沒有想到原沅在真心喜歡上自己後反而卻步了。他不留痕蹟地寵著原沅,也從來沒有想要掩飾彼此的關係。

讓我很心動的一個場景是,原沅忍不住去告白了江行舟。他調侃自己說,江行舟的抗體太強,所以花了很長時間才把他拿下。江行舟說:“你傻不傻?這麼久都沒看出來,我對你從來就沒有抗體。”

3. 

H的場面描繪得很有誠意(笑~)很多校園耽美不就是輕輕帶過嘛~可能是晉江不讓寫。但是作者寫得不俗氣也不很色情,感覺就是很有愛。反正我就很合我胃口。

4.

這還讓我增加了一些關於垃圾分類的知識。(笑~)

比如說單是一杯珍珠奶茶就可以分成三種不同的分類。

還有一些關於攝影和電影製作的小知識。

很多校園耽美都會加插籃球比賽的劇情,每次到這裡我就會跳過或快轉,因為真的沒興趣咩。但是關於垃圾回收,還是會引起我一些興趣。XD

。。。。。

很多的小場景和對白都滿好看的。雖然劇情沒有很緊湊或高潮迭起,但是單是看兩個人之間的感情變化還是很豐富的。不過對兩個男主身邊的人物反觀就沒有那麼深刻的印象。

總而言之,看得沒有負擔,很開心。


Monday, September 6, 2021

《同桌讓我無心學習》蘇景閒

我特別喜歡校園耽美。 
看過《某某》《撒野》《偽裝學渣》等大作後,我也隔了好一段時間沒看小說。
最近看過幾篇像《明人不說暗戀》、《不是什麼正經校草》、《過門》、《我叫我同桌打你》都挺好看,但是總覺得還是少了一點什麼。
好像稍微撓到心的時候又愕然停止了。

這幾天終於讀完一篇我好喜歡的《同桌讓我無心學習》,作者是蘇景閒。
人物和背景設定和《撒野》有些相似之處,比如兩個主角都有家庭的創傷。
《撒野》的顧飛和《同桌》的池野一樣年紀輕輕要挑起一個家的重擔,也都有個年紀小的妹妹要照顧。
《撒野》的蔣丞來自破碎的原生家庭,後來被領養家庭退養;《同桌》的聞簫則是父母妹妹在海難中離世。
不過我沒有要比較的意思,因為兩篇我都超愛,我就是喜歡這樣的設定啊~~

其實校園耽美看多了就會知道有很多場景都是似曾相似的,這就要看作者講故事的功力到哪裡了。
《同桌》裡沒有很多讓我印象深刻的優美詞句,但是我很喜歡作者寫兩個人之間的一些小細節。
還有分手後到再次在一起這段時間,也有比較多的篇幅,不煽情但是就是會痛。
聞簫連分手都捨不得讓池野說,他自己來當壞人。
他心疼池野的苦,但又無能為力。
聞簫的性格很可愛,冷冷的但對池野不傲嬌,而且會多次主動親池野。(喝醉後超可愛的~)

兩個人知道彼此是在相愛卻又無奈的情況下分手的。
分手後聞簫在離開前向池野道別的那一場景,既揪心又溫暖。
明明是相愛的,但是彼此很清楚此刻的分手是為了更好的未來,而且是雙方都有彼此的未來。
他們心中都有很強的信念以及對對方的信任。
池野說,因為他知道有人在前方等著他,所以他必須向前走。
聞簫說,因為他有喜歡的人,所以他答應對方不看別人給的情書、不收別人送的禮物。
只要是池哥說的,他都答應。

他們也沒有在分道揚鑣後完全斷絕關係。
沈野發的朋友圈只有聞簫看得見,雖然彼此沒有主動聯繫對方,可是他在用自己的方式讓聞簫知道自己的近況。

最重要是結局是HE。
我看小說的初衷就是在繁忙的一天結束後,稍微享受可以逃避現實的時刻。
看得開心就好。
這篇《同桌讓我無心學習》我推薦哦!
(這書名...差點就讓我忽略過去了 XD)

Thursday, August 26, 2021

Favourite scenes from Chapter 38 (Final Chapter)

Finally, Caste Heaven came to its end after 7,5 years.
Thank you Ogawa sensei for not giving up and completed the comic.

I am quite satisfied with the ending.
I have different interpretation of 'happy ending'. 
For me, happy ending doesn't need to be 'staying together'.
There are so many different kind of relationships and living patterns.
(In the reality as well, I have seen too many cases around me. :-)

After 10 years...
Atsumu and Kuze live happily together,
Azusa and Karino live seperately but still seeing and teasing each other,
Sensaki and Tatsumi too, they still have the attachment.
But they have one thing in general -- LOVE.

These are my fav scenes of Azusa X Karino.

On the graduation day, Azusa teased Karino and Karino hid himself.
Azusa tried to look for him with teary eyes.

 

Azusa: I couldn't hold it. I feel like want to cry when he treats me so gently.

   

After 10 years, Karino works for the Ministry of Finance and is going to run for the upcoming election.
He is very popular especially among the women.

Azusa is a passionate reporter who always tries to dig some insiders news (forget about ethics, hahaha!)
They live their own life, but intersect at some points.
Still seeing each other, still love to tease each other.
Their game carries on, and Azusa will never loosen the knot which tied them together. :-)








Summary Caste Heaven Chapter 38 (EN) (FINAL!!)

The chapter started with Atsumu and Kuze looking for Azusa and Karino.

The graduation ceremony for the third year students is about to begin, but they cannot be found.
While Azusa was resting with eyes closed, a butterfly made a stop on his head.
Karino chased the butterfly away. Azusa was angry because Karino woke him up.
*********
The third year students started taking graduation photos.
Tatsumi's mother also came to watch him giving graduation speech as a representative of the graduates.
She was so moved by the fact that this excellent child who always did his best, but at the same time trying to keep a low profile.
(But Tatsumi said that he actually planned it)
During the photo shooting session, Tatsumi asked Amamiya to help him with the speech.
Amamiya asked why and Tatsumi said he was waiting for the devil to mess up his happiness.
*********
Atsumu, who was still looking for Azusa and Karino heard their voices.
They were still fighting with each other.
Atsumu found out that it was them and said that “you two are really together.”
Kuze also said in a weird way that “you two are really close.”
They both denied that they are not together.
Karino also teased Kuze that “until when are you going to be Atsumu's henchman?”
(And Karino called him “Kuze-chan”. Hahahaha, the two are so funny)
****************
Inukai is taking pictures for everyone with his camera.
As he wa shouting to everyone to look at the camera and smiled, Kuze turned his head and gave Karino a kiss!
(Karino made a disgusted face and Kuze laughed)
Kuze and Atsumu were posting for photo.
Azusa and Karino squeezed Kuze out together and finally became a three-person photo shoot.
Seeing everyone so happy, Taisho wanted to join in and wrapped around Azusa.
Karino saw Taisho and Azusa posting together, he turned around and left.
Azusa asked Karino why he left without telling and Azusa followed him.
********
The game in class 2-1 continued in shuffle mode because the king card wasn’t found.
Some people wanted the game to start officially, but it was rejected by the Game Committee with the decadent excuse that the king card had not yet been found.
Everyone lived in this status-less state.
**********
Karino and Azusa ran into Kagura before the graduation ceremony started.
They asked him why he wasn't there for the ceremony and the time was almost up.
Kagura said he was a bit late because he tidied up Eno’s stuffs.
Eno's injury was treated as an accident.
Taisho wanted to apologize to Eno for hurting him.
Eno told him not to apologize because he had to apologize for something too.
At that moment, Akio and Nakatomi behind him were shouting at Kagura to hurry up.
Before Kagura left, he wished that Karino and Azusa treat each other nicely.
(Azusa denied that they have good relationship hahaha)
At the same time, Tatsumi was going to attend the graduaton.
As if he heard Azusa's voice, he searched around and regretted not being able to tease Azusa at last.
Suddenly, somebody dragged him away from behind and Tastumi disappeared.
********
On the other side, the paper bags and armbands of the game committee members were burning on the ground.
It turned out that the game committees were actually the third-year students Akio and Nakatomi and Kagura.
Inukai and Anji didn‘t want that those regretful bad things are passed on to the next generation.
They hope that this game could be a chance for reconciliation.
********
At the graduation ceremony, Atsumu, as a current student, gave a speech to his seniors.
Azusa and Karino escaped and started fighting with each other again.
Azusa told Karino not to follow him.
Karino said he didn’t, he just wanted to go this way.
Azusa teased him, "What a waste of such nice cherry blossom! Alright, it is also ok if you want to follow me…”
When Azusa turned around, Karino was gone.
Azusa started to get nervous and shouted for Karino: where are you, bastard?
He even called Karino's name – Kouhei!
Karino was hiding behind a tree and asked Azusa “what’s up”.
Azusa saw Karino and tears falling down.
Karino asked Azusa why he was crying.
Azusa said he didn't.
Karino wanted to look at his face. He blocked Azusa’s way and finally saw the tears.
Then Karino kissed Azusa.
They didn't know what they were going to do.
Karino suggested why not simply go for a random train journey without having a destination.
Kyoko saw them sneaking off again together.
*******
Speech from Atsumu:
“On this beautiful day when the sun is shining and the snow is melting, I would like to congratulate everyone on their graduation.
What is it like to be a student?
Was it happy or painful?
For me, there were many painful experiences.
However, I have don’t hate anyone, because we are simply creatures who are swayed by the circumstances given and the position we are in,
where anyone can be a victim or a perpetrator.
In the process of environmental changes and mutual contact between people with different positions, we understand ourselves, forgive others, and find irreplaceable people.
It is not the person who should change, but the environment.
We should work together towards the goal of creating an environment where everyone can respect each other.
The seniors are next to embark on a new journey.
The difficulties encountered may be even more irrational, insurmountable and unchangeable than they do now.
I hope you will remember what you learned at this school, the one that tore us apart and bridged us back together...”
*********
10 years later.
Atsumu returned to his alma mater as a teacher.
The female students loved him and thought he was cute and liked to poke him in the face.
Atsumu felt that the students didn’t take him seriously.
His former teacher said that he was loved by everyone.
The teacher didn't expect Atsumu to come back to teach.
Atsumu said he wanted to contribute to the children of the future
Back at the home where Kuze and Atsumu live together.
It's been 5 years since the two lived together after graduating from college.
Kuze went from a big company to a venture capital firm.
Atsumu told him that the students at school are nice kids.
He also received hand-made snacks from students.
And Kuze is still the same possessive person.
He wants to have Atsumu's body and mind all to himself.
***************
On the TV, it is announced that the member of parliament Karino (Kouhei’s father) is unable to participate in the election due to health reasons.
In a car, Tatsumi asked someone for help because this was the last task of Mr Karino as a politician.
That person asked what the payment would be.
Tatsumi said a number but didn't get a reply.
That person said it's not a matter of quantity.
That person asked Tatsumi if he had ever “played himself”, and hhe replied occasionally.
That person also said that if it's occasional, ‘the colour shouldn’t be that strong”, he warned Tatsumi not to lie.
Tatsumi asked if he hates bad kids.
The person answered him: No, I like him the most.
(So, you guys know who is that person.)
*******
A bike darted past the car.
It's the reporter Azusa who just got a good story.
He came back to report to his boss and was supposed to start writing the story.
But he went out again and said he had another target.
In the middle of an interview.
The hostess introduced Karino (Kouhei), who is likely to run for office.
He is the son of a congressman, 27 years old, graduated from the University of K, a pure elite, and very popular with his good looks, and asked if he would run in this election.
Karino said that he would announce it on the official occasion, and hoped that the reporters would not ask questions here, which would cause trouble to others.
The female fans were all swooning and thought he was such a gentleman
An older man next to Azusa and Azusa expressed their displeasure together.
Hearing the sound, Karino and Azusa exchanged glances
The same old tit-for-tat.
************
Azusa was at the front door of a high-class apartment ( He only said "it's me".)
After going up to the door, Karino and Azusa started being intimate.
Karino fished out a hidden recorder from Azusa’s cloth.
Karino stripped Azusa naked and pushed him down.
Azusa teased him, "Can't you wait?”
Karino said he wouldn't let him wear any cloth here.
Azusa smiled and said: “I'll keep trying to catch your weakness.”
The game continues for both of them.
Both living in their own worlds, but always intertwined
**************
In a classroom, Atsumu was teaching.
Two girls were whispering:
"Do you know a game that's popular among friends these days?"
"Eh, what's that?"
"Listen it's a game where you can make yourself someone else."
"Eh ~ it feels so interesting, what game is it?"
"I heard it's called caste game"

Tuesday, August 24, 2021

金曲32 年度金曲

恭喜 《刻在我心底的名字》繼金馬獎後,在第32屆金曲獎榮獲年度金曲!

馬上再重溫這首歌,依然感動。

九個月前磕的驊森CP感已經雲消霧散,電影帶來的感動也快忘得七七八八,

但是這首歌帶來的溫暖依舊。

撇去電影的影響,如今再聽別有一番滋味。


瞿導說當初找了幾個歌手來唱,卻沒有一個成,估計是因為電影題材和演出費的關係。

輾轉又回到和他合作過很多次的廣仲手裡。

我想當初拒絕這首歌的歌手多少有些遺憾吧。

但每個歌手和其公司都有自己的考量,也不能怪任何人。

廣仲和歌曲很有緣分。

他和瞿導的合作關係、添翼給他很多的自由去做他想做的、他沒有偶像包袱、他的歌聲很溫柔很適合這首歌......


有時候一首好的詞曲,也需要運氣和緣分。

不是說由誰唱都會讓歌曲大紅大紫。

我很高興最後是廣仲唱了這首歌。

就如他得獎感言,我們應該更加地溫柔對待這個世界。

網絡上的語言暴力十分可怕,也許因為大家都躲在人群後,所以有些人可以放肆地去發洩自己的情緒、不顧及他人感受肆意傷害別人。

我也曾經因為這樣而關閉了留言功能。

但是切斷了與外界的交流,讓我有些無所適從。

所以我覺得今天再開啟留言功能。

歡迎大家來留言交流,同時也希望我們能夠更加溫柔地對待每一個人。




Wednesday, July 21, 2021

Favourite scenes from Caste Heaven Chapter 37

Here are my favourite scenes!!

The sex on the rooftop scenes are really good, but I couldn't upload them here. 

If this has awaken your curiosity, I can tell you it is definitely worth getting a copy of Chapter 37! :-)

Like the previous chapter, there is no violence and brutal scenes, only friendship, love, gratitude and forgiveness.



Azusa hugged Atsumu and apologized for what he have done all along.






I especially like the plot above.
Azusa forgave Eno and hugged him.
He pushed Eno away saying:' It's time for you to be saved.'

Then Kagura stretching his hands out and held Eno from behind.
Kagura apologized to Eno and he wanted to touch Eno again.
Eno cried and said it was too late, but Kagura said it won't be too late.
Both of them together, they can flap their wings again and again.
Finally, Eno cried like a child in Eno's hands.
It is like back to their childhood time.





Azusa burnt the King Card in front of Karino and said: 
'I though if I could destroy your most important thing, I'll win the game,'
Karino smiled and replied:
'Mine? How reckless. My most important thing couldn't be broken easily.'
Then they kissed with passion and love.


Holding hands with finger interlaced.
The prove of they are in love with each other.


Wednesday, July 7, 2021

Summary of Caste Heaven Chapter 37

Million thanks to Penpen!

The Caste Game of Class 2-1 will resume.
The game commissioner introduced the rules as usual like in the first chapter.
The trump cards are scattered throughout the campus and each individual’s position will be determined by the card they found.
The King card is the top of the caste and Joker card is the lowest, which is also the Target.
Those who refuse to participate are immediately turned into Targets.
So let’s start the new round of the rank battle.
Everyone rushed out and started looking for cards.
Kuze asked Atsumu what they should do next.
Atsumu said the caste system was convenient when somebody wanted to hide their weaknesses.
But he was not going to pick any card because he refuses to rely on the game from now on.
Kuze said he knew that Atsumu will say like that and he will stand by him.
At this time, Azusa came over and hugged Atsumu.
(Kuze showed his stinky face)
Azusa apologized that he made lots of mistake all along and he was thankful to Atsumu.
Azusa promised he was going to put an end to the game.
The game commissioners who were standing behind were speechless.
Kuze was jealous and he hugged Atsumu tight when Atsusa went off.
One of the commissioners said he had to get ready.
Another commissioner also warned him to be aware of outsiders.
(Penpen: I think some outsiders had assimilated in the game among the commissioners)
Eno and his gang approached the commissioner.
Eno asked the commissioner to tell him where the King Card was.
The commissioner said since they were not from Class 2-1, they were not allowed to involve in the game, otherwise it will be unfair.
Eno retorted that there was no real fairness.
The commissioner said even so they were still not allowed to influence the participant’s choice.
The commissioner had Eno in a chokehold and decided to detain Eno before the game ends.
At this time, Azusa came by.
Eno bit the commissioner and escaped.
Azusa felt that Eno will sure mess up the whole thing.
Eno was exhausted after escaping from the commissioner.
He wondered why they were so serious about the game.
Taisho came up from behind and teased Eno.
He felt ‘so sorry’ to the Queen who lost his followers.
Eno turned around and asked who Taisho was.
Taisho said even though Eno didn’t know him, but he was there to clean up rubbish.
And then Taisho stabbed Eno with a knife!!!
Eno was dumbfounded for a moment and fell on the ground moaning in pain.
Eno asked Taisho who he was and why did he do that to him.
Taisho said that the attacker was always very forgetful.
But the scars of the victims will never disappear.
He wanted Eno to go through what his brother went through before.
He wanted to leave Eno scars that will remain forever.
As he was about to stab Eno again, Azusa stopped Taisho from behind.
Taisho didn't understand. He just wanted to take vengeance for his brother.
Azusa said taking vengeance won't help, nobody would be happy.
Taisho said Eno must be punished by someone.
Azusa told him this fits in exactly with Eno’s wishes.
Azusa asked Eno to get up and stop acting.
Eno smiled and said he thought he had delivered a subtle performance.
Eno got up and said he now remembered who Taisho was. He was the brother of that toy boy.
Eno incited Taisho to stab him.
Taisho was a little shocked and asked if he was serious.
Eno said he was a thrash, just like what Taisho said about him.
Eno said Taisho wasn’t able to kill him and asked Taisho to stab him harder, let Taisho dirt himself with his blood.
Azusa looked at Eno and pulled him over.
Eno thought Azusa wanted to attack him, but Azusa pulled him over and hugged him.
Azusa said to Eno: You should be saved too.
Then Azusa pushed Eno away.
Kagura stretched out his hand and hugged Eno from behind.
Eno struggled and asked Kagura to let him go but Kagura refused.
Kagura apologized to Eno because he didn’t reach out to save Eno that time. He was too afraid that he would fall too.
Eno kept asking Kagura to let him go while Kagura kept talking.
Kagura said he wasn’t as strong and righteous as Eno thought. But he still wanted to touch Eno again.
Kagura asked Eno to give him the courage and hold his hand again.
Eno said it was too late. He had messed up everything.
Kagura said if they were together, they could still fly high no matter how many times.
Finally, Eno cried out loudly and revealed his true feeling.
Taisho said this was unacceptable.
Nobody had saved anything and it was not yet over.
Azusa told Taisho that he had forgiven Eno.
If Taisho couldn’t accept this, he could vent his anger on him.
Taisho said Azusa was so cunning
He could never do this to someone who was so kind to his brother.
At this moment, Atsumu came and told them that the ambulance was on its way.
Azusa said he was counting on him because he was going to leave.
Taisho hoped that Azusa could stay there with him.
Azusa stroked Taisho’s head and asked him to stay together with his brother.
Taisho’s brother came and Taisho apologized because he failed to take vengeance for him.
Taisho’s brother said he didn’t expect that either.
Taisho’s brother said somebody has already rescued him, although that person didn’t keep him in his heart.
(Penpen: I have the feeling that Taisho had special feeling towards Azusa and Haruto his brother were interested in Karino…)
The girls complained that they couldn't find their cards.
Kanako was tired and she wanted to eat muffin.
Kyoko said let's go eat muffins together.
(They didn't care about the game at all.)
Seeing Azusa running over, Kyoko greeted him and told him that the King Card wasn’t there.
At that moment, the cards scattered from the rooftop.
It was Inukai and Anji after a long time!
Anji asked Inukai if it was good to do so.
Inukai said he wanted to see what Azusa would do.
Yukari was calling out to Yatori to help her with the card.
(Maybe she saw the King Card)
But Azusa got the King Card finally.
Azusa came to the rooftop and burnt the King Card.
Kneeling down in front of Karino, Azusa said:’ I thought I could win the game by destroying the most important thing to you. Then you will kneel down in front of me too.’
Karino:’Mine? How reckless. My most important thing won’t be able to be broken easily.’
Then both of them have 9 pages sex scene on the rooftop!
No one ever told us
The anxiety and struggle that we went through and finally we found them,
the feeling of being passionate…
seems everyone calls it "love".

--- Next chapter will be the last chapter. T.T ---

Wednesday, June 23, 2021

Best scenes of Caste Heaven CH 36!

Just got my Kindle digital version of Caste Heaven today.

This is definitely my favourite chapter. 

Still 3 chapters left, I hope I can have more Azusa and Karino! 

These are the best scenes (for me) from chapter 36.

For those who want to (and afford to) support Ogawa sensei, you may go to amazon.co.jp to purchase a copy.

Caste Heaven is released monthly on Be X Boy Magazine. 

Hope you enjoy the beautiful scenes as much as I do!

I love the plot where Karino purposely walked down the stairs and stood at a lower position than Azusa.
For me, I would interpret it as he is defeated by Azusa because he loves him.
He could give up everything for Azusa, and in order to protect Azusa.



Karino: "I want to touch you with my true self."

Azusa wanted Karino to join the game and fight with him one more time so badly.
Azusa was desperate when Karino told him that he quitted the game and Azusa could be the King as he like.
Azusa was desperate because he thought the Caste Game was the only way for him to be connected with Karino.
But Karino quitted the game because he wanted to fix his wrongdoing. 
He wanted to touch Azusa with his true self, not with the power and authority granted by the game.



Azusa decided never to drop his tears in front of other people since the day he knew that he had nobody to rely on.
But he cried helplessly in front of Karino. He was afraid of being seperated from Karino.
Azusa said:' I don't know any other way to stay connected with you."



The gentle kiss and smile from Karino, and crying Azusa...



Wednesday, June 9, 2021

Summary of Caste Heaven Extra (Kyoko's prespective)

 Thanks Penpen for the summary!

-Extra –

From the perspective of Kyoko

(Background story of Caste Game):

From Class 1 -1 to Class 2 - 1

Azusa-King Target

Karino-Wannabe King

Kyoko-Pleaser Floater

Kanako-Queen Goth

Before the cultural festival, Kanako asked Kyoko why did she choose to be a Floater, because Pleaser ranked higher than Floater.

Kyoto replied, if the nails are too long, she won’t be able to hold anything in her hand.

 

(Back to the time during 1st Grade)

Kyoto was a high-ranked Pleaser.

She polished her nails, wore high heels, put on lip sticks and highlighted her hair.

She unbuttoned her shirt, pulled her skirt up and had handsome boyfriends.

These are all status symbols as a high-ranked Pleaser.

Although she wasn’t reluctant to do so, but she wasn’t very interested in it.

She felt bored looking at those girls, looking at how Azusa teased Karino and how Karino flattered Azusa every day. She just wanted to leave this boring place.

Azusa told Kyoko, although she always thinks that everything is boring, but she was the most boring one.  

Although Kyoko acted indifferently but Azusa’s comment hit her.

She indeed has been looking for something which can make her life meaningful all the time.

 

Kyoko passed by a classroom and heard somebody was playing drums.

She saw a girl was playing drums and she found her super cool.

(Please refer to chapter 27. She was the one from Class 3-1 who asked Atsumu and Yukari to take picture at the cultural festival.)11

Kyoko wanted to play drum too, but Karino teased her that she wasn’t going to make it because she won’t give up her long nails and mini skirt.

Kyoko was so angry that she rushed to the girl and asked her to teach her how to play drums.

 

(During the school trip)

Kanako asked Kyoko what was her wish at the Yasaka Temple.

Kyoko said she wished that their band would make a great and successful performance during the cultural festival.

Kanako was surprised that Kyoko played in the band and asked her what did she do in the band.

Kyoko told her she was the drummer but she was still a rookie.

Yumi who heard this teased Kyoko that she would only embarrass herself on the stage.

Kanako found Yumi very rude.

Kyoko just smiled and said she simply wanted to do so and invited Yumi to come to watch her performance.

The next day, Kyoko woke up early.

Although she seemed didnt to mind what Yumi said, but still she didn’t feel good.

And then, she saw Karino and Azusa.

 

Karino and Azusa came back from the villa and climbed through the window.

Karino was so cheeky to ask Azusa to let him step on his back in order to climb through the window.

Azusa complaint that Karino was too heavy and he hurt his back.

He should be the one who step on Karino’s back and climb through the window.

Karino said since he was the one who left the window unlocked, he had the priority.

Karino preteded to walk away and ignore Azusa (who was still waiting outside) after he got into the building.

But then he held Azusa’s hand and pulled him in.

 

Azusa said sarcastically: what a great school trip.

Karino asked him what happened and Azusa said someone kept harassing him.

(Remember in chapter 23, Azusa asked Karino why Karino kissed him and Karino replied it was harassment?)

Karino suggested why don’t they do it once again.

At the same time, they heard some noise.

It was Kyoko who hid behind the wall and tried to hold back her sneeze.

Karino and Azusa went back to their own room.

Kyoko smiled and she knew that something had changed between both of them.

From now on, she also wanted to chase what she wants and find her place.

She was going to put her best foot forward.

 

(During the cultural festival)

Yumi was angry and sad because she wasn’t able to stop Karino from leaving.                                            

Kyoko came and invited her to come and watch the band performance.

Yumi vented her angrer on Kyoko. She said she hated Kyoko because Kyoko could easily let go everything that she worked hard for before.

She was envious and jealous of Kyoko’s beautiful appearance and her popularity.

Kyoko wasn’t angry. She told Yumi she found Yumi great because Yumi put effort  to make herself become attractive and Yumi was brave enough to chase after love.

Before leaving, Kyoko asked Yumi to come and watch the band performance.

Back to the rehearsal room, Kyoko wanted Kanako to watch her playing drums.

Kyoko’s monologue:

I don’t care about all that mess anymore.

It’s my life and I am the one who take charge of it.


Monday, June 7, 2021

Summary of Caste Heaven Chapter 36

There are only 3 chapters left!

Million thanks to amazing Penpen from Weibo who wrote up a summary.

Chapter 36 is full of love, generosity and mutual understanding (Azusa X Karino,  Azusa X mum, Tastumi X Azusa X Karino). No brutal violence and ugly speeches. 

The chapter begins with the monologue from Taisho.

He heard about his brother’s injury from his parents. He didn’t know that his brother had been targeted and how he had been treated.

When he saw the way his brother endured all these tortures being afraid of retaliation for a year, Taisho made up his mind.

He wanted to find out who made his brother suffer.

He had to find the right moment. In this isolated and decayed world, where no one could feel anything unusual, he is the only person who could destroy it.

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The Caste Game of the Class 2-1 was going to resume next week.

-        Azusa asked the game committee if the Target could also participate in the game.

-        The game committee said yes and told him that those who aren’t participating would be forced to be the Targets.

-          Azusa went to the library to look for Tatsumi.

-          He wanted to see Karino and asked him to join the game so that they would fight again.

-          Tastumi expressed his gratitude to Azusa for giving the opportunity to Karino to be himself.

-          Otherwise, Karino might have remained an empty shell for the rest of his life.

-          But Tatsumi said it is time for us to realise that we can’t be anyone else but ourselves.

-          We can only accept who we are and live on.

-          Azusa and Karino are two worlds apart.

-          Tatsumi asked Azusa to leave Karino alone.


-          Azusa told Tatsumi that their relationship couldn’t just end up like this.

-          Tastumi smiled when he heard what Azusa said.

-          He told Azusa which hospital Karino was in.

-          He warned Azusa that even he himself hadn’t been able to visit Karino, maybe Azusa might not be able to see Karino as well.

-          Azusa got the information and vigorously patted on Tatsumi and said: You did a good job. (LOL)

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-          Azusa was told by the nurse that he needed an appointment to visit Karino.

-          Azusa couldn’t do anything but just leave.

-          When he walked out from the hospital, it started to snow.

-          The snow reminded Azusa of his childhood.

 

-          When Azusa was a child, he was often left alone at night.

-          He was so lonely and sad that he always cry. This made Azusa’s mother feel troubled.

-          One day, Azusa’s mum wasn’t at home during the day. Little Azusa cried on his pillow and kept asking his mum where she had gone.

       Finally his mother replied him that she was now at the station and wanted Azusa to pick her up with an umbrella.

-          Tightly wrapped in his winter clothes, Azusa was over the moon when he saw his mum. Mum brought him some meat buns.

-          On this snowy night, they went back home hand in hand.

-          Mum told Azusa that she failed the interview again.

-          Mum said since she had only secondary school education and no working experience, nobody would hire her.

-          Azusa consoled his mum and said that mum is good enough, that wasn’t her fault.

-          Azusa’s mum felt very sad and sorry for Azusa because she couldn’t provide Azusa a happy life and she had to leave him alone at home.

-          Since then, Azusa wanted to be powerful and have strength.

-          After knowing that there is no one for him to rely on, he wouldn’t let anyone see his tears.


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-          Karino felt that it was snowing outside and he pulled the curtain aside.

-          He saw a tiny figure curled up out there.

-          He asked Azusa: Oi, are you dead?

-          Azusa turned his head and looked at him, Karino said Azusa has strong vitality like weeds.

-          Azusa was so angry and he grabbed Karino by his shirt.

-          Karino was moaning in pain and Azusa apologised.

-          Karino laughed at Azusa’s foolishness.

 

-          Both of them slipped out from the hospital and went to buy some supper at a convenience shop.

-          Azusa teased Karino and said he thought Karino would be crying when he was disqualified as King. But Karino seemed to be fine.

-          Karino said Azusa was the same and asked him how the school was now.

-          Azusa told him everybody was super messed up except Yumi, she seemed unexpectedly calm.

-          Karino asked him what about Taisho and said that Taisho was dangerous.

-          Azusa felt that Taisho was just a silly guy and wasn’t dangerous.

-          Karino said then that’s fine, but Azusa better keeps an eye on Taisho because he couldn’t be there now.


-          Azusa rushed to the front of Karino and told him the game will resume next week, he wanted to fight with Karino again.

-          Karino said Azusa was really relentless and refuse to give in.

-          Karino walked to a lower position and faced Azusa.

-          He told Azusa that he has quitted the game.

-          If Azusa insisted of getting back the King, he might go on.


-          Azusa didn’t understand and asked if this meant that Karino admitted defeat.

-          Karino said no, but his time for the game was up.


-          In a fit of anger , Azusa leapt and pinned down Karino.

-          He accused Karino always acting like he was different from everyone else, as if he was always a good person. Indeed, he was born with a golden key and treated the others like a fool.


-          Karino replied Azusa that he wasn’t like that, he just didn’t want to pretend anymore.

-          Karino:’ I want to touch you with my true self.’

 

-          Azusa shouted NONONO.

-          Karino didn’t understand why Azusa was so concerned about the caste.

-          Azusa should be happy that he had one opponent less now.

-          Azusa said he wanted to be King because he wanted to be powerful, even if he had to kick everybody down.

-          Karino still didn’t understand and asked Azusa if he wasn’t tired of arming himself like this.


-          Azusa said:‘ If I don’t arm myself, I wouldn’t be able to face you with my true self. I don’t know any other way to stay connected with you.’

-          Azusa cried and his tears dripped on Karino’s face.

-          Karino got up and kissed Azusa gently.

-          Karino said:’even if you don’t arm yourself, we are still connected.’

 

-          The nurse was going to find out that Karino slipped out from the hospital.

-          Karino pushed Azusa and asked him to go ahead. He wanted to see what Azusa’s choice is.

      

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       Azusa’s monologue:

-          Looking back, those people and society who deny us.

-          The inequality since at the beginning, even the distribution of the cards is unfair.

-          Trying to turn the world upside down.

-          I‘m not miserable, my life isn’t unfortunate.

-          I have been looking for the only thing that affirms this life.

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-          The next morning before Azusa went to school, mum told Azusa that if it was too suffering to go to school, it is ok if Azusa quits school.

-          Mum said:’ We parents always want their children to do this and that.

-          They put too much expectation on their children unconsciously.

-          I just want to see Azusa smiles happily and that would be enough.

-          Because this is my happiness.’

-          Smiling to his mum, Azusa said:’ Idiot, I am going now.’